[The possibility wouldn't occur to him and it's best he doesn't know the whole truth or he would do everything in his power to stop Kexing. His lover's soul - his life - are far too precious and Zishu feels unworthy of them.

He blinks slowly, surprised when their positions are switched - so gently too! The kiss is laid upon his lips just as sweetly and Zishu returns the pressure, wrapping his arms around his Lao Wen. His heart is overflowing with love for this man and he doesn't understand how he got so lucky.]

I can't put it all into words. [Small tears well in his eyes and he looks over his Lao Wen longingly.] I wish I had the energy...and the stamina...to show you. But I can touch you. I can feel your skin against my hands...

[So he lets his hands wander, stroking up and down Kexing's strong arms, over his chest and around to his back.]